Good morning and Happy Saturday!
It’s about 11:00 a.m. on Saturday, March 12th and here I am propped up on the couch enjoying one of my many liters of water that I’m drinking these days while my mom is busy making my bed and cleaning my bathroom. Meanwhile, my laundry is over at Debi’s Walter’s house being folded and organized, my fridge is full of delicious home-cooked leftovers from meals that friends have dropped off, my daughter is sleeping snug and warm in her room, exhausted from a morning of playing with her Grammy, and for the next four weeks my calendar is full of many more days like this to come. At seemingly the drop of a hat, the life I knew – my organized, planned, knew-just-what-to-expect-each-day routine has come to screeching halt and all because of a tiny two and a half pound trouble maker named Thomas Jonathan.
At first glance, the above description of this new season my OB calls “Bed Rest” might seem pretty accurate, however in my heart, I know it’s far from the truth. In reality, the only thing that has changed is MY agenda for this pregnancy, MY plans for how MY life is to play out and the way that I like things to be done. When not selfishly consumed with thoughts on how “weird” and “abnormal” the next (God-willing) 10 weeks of leisure are going to be for me, the Holy Spirit has gently helped me to see that this is not a complication of pregnancy. This is not the result of something that my body is doing and this has not come about at “the drop of a hat”. Rather, this is a part of God’s perfectly designed and unfathomably GOOD plan for my life. Even that.. my life… such a proud statement when in actuality I cannot control the beating of my own heart or cause my lungs to fill with air. Oh, thank you, Lord, for being so kind to help me realize that there is nothing I can do apart from You! You are the giver and the sustainer of life and You cause all things to happen according to Your will. Father, You hold all of my times in Your hand and nothing escapes or is too small for Your notice. Oh God, how great Thou art!
Here we are at only day 8 of bed rest, and already God is revealing SO MUCH to my sinful heart! I want to constantly pray and be asking God for humility that I might be able to receive from Him all that He intends for this short season.
